I am aware I have been recently slandered and pretty much cancelled for dumb shit I did when I was 13-16, I know I am not innocent and I'm not denying that. I was an awful person as a kid, especially to my ex. It didn't help that I was being heavily badly influenced by grown adults and environments who wanted to take advantage of my heartbreak and exploit me from when I was freshly traumatized, me being groomed and abused while growing up both online and in real life, growing up on the internet as a child, the like. It is extremely irresponsible how I wasn't contacted about this beforehand and so many others, and twisting the story especially ignoring the factors that others involved were also; Mentally Unstable, Abused, Children being Exploited To Hurt Eachother. I am not denying I didn't treat my ex badly because I did, and I deeply regret it with all of my heart and I even apologized to him countless times and we even agreed we were toxic to eachother. He isn't innocent either, he did the same things and not even I hold that against him. He completely avoided the fact that he did the same thing to me and acted like I was this Monster when I was a stupid 13-16 year old being borderline groomed by adults to hurt him. I completely get it; he was a child who was abused by the internet and not a good home, I wasn't either and he knows this but completely avoids bringing that up. I should not be defined by my past relationship from when I was a child, We both Hurt Eachother. I'm an adult now, obviously I have been trying to be responsible and not the same person. The people around me for the past 5 years can testify. I plan on making a video explaining my trauma and past dramas in the future, it'll take time to make since I have been sick and I'm still trying to finish highschool. I apologize for the wait. I also need space and time, going after anyone doesn't help anybody and makes everything worse. Regardless of how mentally unstable I was and being taken advantage of, I still did it and I am fully responsible. I am not trying to excuse myself, because I can never forgive myself for what I did and always wish I never did it; I just wanted to explain myself and hopefully have people atleast take some factors into consideration if they can take some of his. I think everyone should take into consideration that Everyone has Hurt Eachother, I do hope my ex the best on his healing process and that the world should treat him better.
On one hand, I'm glad I'm being held accountable in some form however I think it's extremely irresponsible to paint me as this irredeemable monster for doing the same things my ex did as a child. He has never even tried to put the effort into trying to talk to me. It makes it worse since this has been prying into my adult years and real life. I don't hold the past he did to me in the past, even if I'm traumatized I completely understand why he did it.